Driving

Driving myself forward
onward
upward
crazy
insane
...almost drove away with the gasoline hose. Crazy? Maybe.

To reflect
gaze
look upon
study
evaluate
question
consider
ponder
analyze
probe
scrutinize
criticize
comparmentalize
dissect
undermine and
then finally destroy.
logic and reason

The mind can destroy the best of things, if you want to find something good or bad it will present itself. Synonyms that will lead you to down different paths of discovery. But contradictions don't exist.